I'm not sure what happened. Maybe this New Year, fresh start thing has gotten to me. Maybe I'm just scared enough of the future to do something for once. Maybe Kodak had a stronger hold on me than I thought. Hell, maybe being around Kara has given me massive inspiration. Any way I look at it, this new year has started out a career-related blessing. Granted, I haven't done anything to actually make money this year, but I have done more to get doing things to jump start my life than I have in the past. My writer's block is gone. I'm (slowly) getting my vocabulary back. I actually did an audition for a voiceover job. I've even been a bit inspired to start singing again. Granted, I didn't get the voiceover job, none of my writing is even finished yet, and I've only once in my life sung in public. I know that this is my year. I can't explain it, but I just know.
Moving on...
I have a friend on Facebook who said (or wrote I guess) how annoyed they get with, well, their friends' unimportant status updates, like game achievements, how they are upset but won't elaborate, pictures of what they cooked for dinner, etc. They said they would just start deleting friends over it if they got too annoyed. I'm still trying to figure out why I've been so affected by this. It's probably because I do some of that stuff. I like to post song lyrics when I'm sad and my own words fail me. Sometimes, I post game achievements and request help from my friends who are also playing the game of Facebook. I have been known to write about and post pictures of dinners I'm proud of. When I say I lost 2 1/2 years to Kodak, I'm not kidding. I didn't cook, I didn't clean, I hardly ever went out with friends. All I did was sleep and work, because I couldn't physically do more. Sometimes, posting a sad song lyric gets people to ask me how I'm doing, and just that tiny little acknowledgment is enough to help me feel a little better. Playing games with others is fun, and since I'm kind of a homebody, is my source of social interaction sometimes. I stopped cooking for so long, and I've just been happy about getting back into it, and I wanted to share my... progress?... with my friends and family. I realize I shouldn't take something like Facebook so seriously, but it's pretty much my connection to the outside world at this point and (not that she was necessarily talking about me specifically) I would hate for an old friend to delete my name from their friend list over something like that, especially when there is an option to block said annoying person's status updates without getting rid of them entirely. I know that deleting someone from a friend list isn't like saying "I don't want to be friends with you anymore" to everyone, but it means that to me. It means that what I have to say and what is important to me doesn't matter. Personally, I love reading about other people's trivial moments in life. Really, it kind of helps me keep my own humanity, and keeps me grounded and sane. I know it sounds ridiculous, but it's true. I've always been a little crazy (We all go a little mad sometimes, haven't you?) and sometimes I lose my connection to reality. Things like Facebook help me stay in touch, not only with my friends and family, but myself. Who knows, maybe she was just in a bad mood, and won't ever think about it again, but I'm afraid it'll affect my interactions on Facebook from here on out, and that makes me a little sad. I really do enjoy sharing too much.
